I just let out a big, deep sigh. I had to. I needed it.
The theme continues. I want to be understood. It would be so nice to be understood, completely and without suspicion. It would be so comforting to be told that someone understands, that it is ok, that i am just human. It would be so nice to be just normal, not strange, not foreign, not different, not weird, not suspected. I want to be 'figured out', I wish people would understand and trust that I am quite harmless. I am just someone trying to be a good person, or at least most of the times. I have no intend of any 'cattivaria'.
There is a yearning inside of me, I am sick of feeling all alone, without any ally. I am always the only one defending myself, day in, day out. If once someone happen to tell me that they understand and identify with me, I would be close to tears. It has been too long. Most of the time I swallow it at the back of my throat. I am alone, alone, alone. I once saw a a movie where the girl said that she is the 'loniest girl in the world'. I have been feeling like that. There is no one on my side. Wouldn't it be nice to be told I am ok, just normal, just human. Everythin is going to be just fine. Dare I dream about someone who'd say he'd take care of me, and that is he is someone capable of it.
Wouldn't that be nice.